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New Home

2007-10-07T10:48:00.000+07:00

http://gxpratama.wordpress.com

More Mumblings. More Fun.

Peace. Out.

So be it!

2007-03-28T11:16:00.000+07:00

Love has its price.. And I have paid since a long time ago.. If I have to die.. Then I know that I will die because of love.. So be it!

Peace. Out.

Deliriously loving you..

2007-03-09T20:17:00.000+07:00

From 6,525,170,264(*) world population, why me, why you.. Why us.. I just wondering, where the flow will bring us to.. I hope everything will be okay.. I just simply want to be with you.. Damn I really want to become such Illusionist..

Its so hard living as a melancholic, and you know that for sure..

(*)(July 2006 est.) According to CIA factbook.

Peace. Out.

Tears and Rain

2007-02-19T20:34:00.000+07:00

I can only say sorry..

My serendipity... :(

Ghost Stories

2007-01-18T20:43:00.000+07:00

No, I'm not talking about some kind of freaky creatures that most Indonesians like so much :p *hehe, no offense!* I'm talking about a new album that was launched in December 2006, belong to a Canadian lovely singer, Chantal Kreviazuk that is. A little info about Chantal Thelma-Ramupriya Kreviazuk (wow!) can be found in wiki or in her several fan-site like chantal-k, collecting kreviazuk and of course her official website. And in addition, this gal also has a myspace account. I don't know if her myspace is maintained by herself or by another "fans" of her.. Hehe.. For sure, there you can hear some of her latest-greatest songs for free. Yay! :D

About this album, there are 11 songs inside, and for sure it's really a very good album. I really like them all! But a song I really like most is "Ghost of You". Nice music, nice lyrics, nice voice. Period. Here's the lyric, see for yourself.

lyrics - ghost of you

Btw, I like Chantal so much, and maybe that explains why I also like Avril so much! Chantal co-written several Avril's songs! Wow, what a nice "coincidence" to like them both.. No wonder.. Hehe..

Peace. Out.

*highly unimportant.. :p

2007-01-08T19:37:00.000+07:00

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2006(7)

2006-12-31T17:20:00.000+07:00

No, I don't have any plan to make this blog a monthly blog, nor to quit from blogging. Blogging are meant to be fun, no matter what. It's a media for you to express anything in your mind. And yes, I'm also a very happy blog lurker. As I spent most of my "blogging" time just (happily) lurking to everybody else's blog.

Recently (that would mean months ago :p) I've also read about the "debate" regarding the so-called "blog-seleb", blah..blah..hell, why should you bother? Everybody has their own reason when they start to blog. Pity on you who start to blog just because you want other people's comment on your blog. Ah ya, why should I write about it here. But hey, it's my mind right now. Do you get the point? That's why I blog. Simply to express anything I want here. Some people are just don't understand.

Well, I just hope everybody have a very good luck tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, forever. Welcome 2007. I hope everything will be better, and life become as what we all expected.

I'll simply have a nice walk today. Enjoy the life.

Peace. Out.

agxpratama[at]yahoo[dot]com

2006-12-05T20:04:00.000+07:00

My new Yahoo ID.
Please Update.
Thank you.

*in grief mode*

Peace. Out.

Scheiße!!!

2006-11-27T17:06:00.000+07:00

Scheiße!!! Merde!!! Shit!!! Somebody has compromised my Yahoo Password! It has changed, while I did not do anything! Now I can't login to any Yahoo service! Mail, messenger, others.. The password recovery also didn't work! Now my Yahoo account has been temporarily disabled! It just makes my day perfect!!! Es ist so ein Scheißtag!!!

Bu Kalp Seni Unuturmu..

2006-11-20T16:31:00.000+07:00

WARNING!!! All of the material below is only ~~opinions~~ mumblings, the whole are written as a space-separated-words. It might be: provocative and OFFENSIVE to the mind. Not recommended for reader under 9, reader under 17 requires accompanying parent or adult guardian. This post also contain strong technical jargon, do NOT read unless you're ready to have a damaged brain, disfunctional digestive system, or heart attack. This post is provided as is. Only for the one who really understand the inside of me. Read on your own risk.

Iya, gw tau bakal basi banget klo mo nerusin post bulan *kmaren*, makanya gak gw terusin.. Masa makanan basi disuguhin, kan penghinaan terhadap kode etik blog dan perikeblogan.. *maksa* Makanya posting sekarang gak nyambung sama bulan kmaren.. *males mode ON* You know what I mean rite? Hehe.. ;p

Below is the main post. It will be updated everytime I get the splashes..
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serendipity content virtual-network rumput-hijau kalp voll kanariya love mixed kernel nose smile eneg remember secret tulus virtual-machine Schloss laugh tunduh TTM admire traurig thin-client langit-biru giggles pegel bad-day hope tough patch swords krabbeln hair shakira like missing install Pferd pimple hands buzz

Peace. Out.

Eid al-Fitr Fest..

2006-10-27T20:15:00.000+07:00

[mp3 player di kanan bawah di-pause dulu aja klo mo setel vidklip ini///just pause the mp3 player first (in the bottom-right) to play the vidclip]

Ternyata gw emang suka banget sama lagu ini.. Liriknya asik, musiknya asik, eh videoklipnya juga keren banget lagi! Cewe yang maen gw kenal dari The O.C. (walopun dia maen cuma bentar di The O.C. tapi berkesan banget deh..) :D Oya, ini soal selera, dan selera orang kan bisa beda2.. Jadi walopun udah gak sedih lagi, gw tetep pasang vidklip yang gw dapet dari youtube ini.. *tuing, tuing, gak nyambung mode ON..* :p

Anyway, into the topic.. As I previously mentioned [in the sideblog if you noticed], it was very unpredicted to have "eid al-fitr fest" in this country, thousand miles away from home.. It simply begins with the day when we (me and another moslem friends here) were still confused to decide when would the "eid al-fitr fest" be. Unlike in Indonesia where every head has their own opinion and "debate" whether to have the fest at monday or tuesday, the authority here has an easier job since there's not much to "debate" over to, or I'd say none to be precise. Only a slight rumors that said the fest is at sunday instead of monday, maybe because they think they should follow Mecca which celebrate the fest in sunday. But then, the authority here finally decide the fest would be on monday and the Eid-el-Fitr-Communal-Prayer(tm) would be held at 08:20.

And for us, it's time to shake the dice and choose, is it sunday, monday, or tuesday? Why should we choose since the authority has decided the fest to be on monday? *good question* Here's an answer, we came to this country several days after the Ramadhan starts, while it starts here at a different day with Indonesia. Not to mention timezone difference which adds another confusion to make the best decision. *waduh* Well, because of one and another reason, we *eventually* pick monday like the authority has decided. It's the most logically, and socially accepted, in our humble opinion.

And here comes monday a.k.a. Eid el-Fitr Fest! Hooray! *with tears drop* It's a mixed feeling indeed! And it's hard to describe too! I started the day with another sleep after shubuh prayer (06:00) since I was very tired hiking to Wartburg in Eisenach, the day before *??!* and here, the sun rises at 07:10. So another hour to sleep wouldn't hurt (of course!). Voila! Wake up at 07:30 and then take bath in a real rush! So refreshing! And yes, I've realized that I was late! The Tram (Strassenbahn) to the Mosque near campus would require half an hour to arrive! But guess what, I'm not the only one who was late.. Hehe.. :p Yudha called me from his cell phone told me that he were wearing his shoes while i was walked in front of the library of the Uni where I lived. He told me to wait for him, ok then, finally we met at the tram station. There were nobody in the tram station, bad sign, it means that the tram were just leave when we arrived. And yes, 10 minutes to wait for another tram. It's 08:10 when the tram arrived and brought us to the town centre. It's 08:20 in the town centre now, and yes, I repeat, we were late since the tram to the mosque would require another ten or 15 minutes!

But who will ever thought? The tram suspended because there were street cleaning job right in the middle of the town where we should leave at that moment from the site! *sigh* In desperate we finally decided to go to another mosque near the town centre, running, saving times left..

[to be continued..]

Peace. Out.

Daniel Powter - Bad Day

2006-10-16T18:27:00.000+07:00

Where is the moment when you need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Tell me your blue sky's fade to grey
Tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You're standin' in line just to hit a new low
You're fakin' a smile with the coffee to go
Tell me your life's been way off line
You're fallin' to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

'Cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day, the camera don't lie
You're comin' back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day... you had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day, you're takin' one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day, the camera don't lie
You're comin' back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day...(mmm... holiday)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink and the whole thing it turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know that you could be well all that strong
And I'm not wrong... (Yeahh!!)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
(oh, when you're down)
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

'Cause you had a bad day, you're takin' one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day, you see what you like
And how does it feel, one more time,
You had a bad day... you had a bad day
(ahh yeahh!!)
You had a bad day 3x
(faded)

No Peace. Still Out.

New mp3 player..

2006-10-12T19:13:00.000+07:00

Ladies and gentlemen.. I proudly introduce my new Flash mp3 Player to broaden my audience.. Hehe.. :p

See under the Miscellaneous section down there, you'll see a nifty flash gadget playing a playlist of my two favorite songs. Well, I've plenty of favorite songs right now, but I'm just too lazy to upload them.. Hehe.. :p Anyway, I got this li'l nifty gadget after googling for a flash based mp3 player since not everybody have a Quicktime or Windows Media Player or Real Media installed correctly to manage mp3 streams. Why Flash-based-tools? Here's one answer.. Thanks to this ~~gal (or~~ guy?) who eventually wrote other cool flash-based-gadgets. Just check her site for more infos.

Oya, I also replace that dumb sideblog with my very own *dumber* sideblog which actually is an iframe loading my other blog.. :p You can get the explanation in Blogger Help about posting multiple blog at the same page. It's very easy yet so dumb but working.. :p

Peace. Out.

Erste Post von Erfurt..

2006-10-02T18:50:00.000+07:00

Update: [images] activated, posted with a photo from my flickr account.

First post from Erfurt will be filled with my mail to my parents.. Here we go..

Ass. Wr. Wb.

Aa baru bisa kirim email lagi sekarang, soalnya kmaren hari sabtu n minggu kan libur jadi ga ke kampus. Kmaren itu, jadual penerbangan yang dikasih, ternyata pake waktu lokal masing2 negara. Kmaren kan berangkat jam 22.25 tea, trus nyampe kuwait jam 06.15 itu teh ternyata waktu kuwait, bukan waktu indonesia. Jadi udah ada perbedaan waktu juga. Jadinya nyampe Frankfurt tuh jam 13.45 waktu Frankfurt, bedanya sama indonesia sekarang 5 jam, jadi aa nyampe Frankfurt tuh di Indonesia udah tanggal 28 jam 18.45.

Waktu di pesawat, kita sempet beberapa kali makan da perjalanannya kan panjang, trus aa sahur pake waktu di darat saat itu, jadinya kita tuh baru buka shaum setelah sampe erfurt, shaumnya jadi panjang banget.. Di sini shubuh jam 05.25 trus maghrib jam 18.57, makin deket ke musim dingin siangnya jadi semakin pendek ntar.. Trus setelah bulan oktober, beda waktunya sama Indonesia jadi 6 jam, sekarang mah masih 5 jam bedanya.

Di Erfurt, kan ada Universitas, ada FH (institut teknik), nah aa mah sama sendy n yudha (senior yang kerja di sana tea) ditempatinnya di asrama Uni, kalo mamat mah di FH sendirian. Asrama ini teh harus bayar, tapi masih belum pasti cenah apakah dibayarin juga ato harus bayar sendiri, masih mau diurus hari rabu besok. Klo bayar, setiap bulannya EU99, sekitar 1,2 juta-an..Jaminan juga harus bayar EU200 tapi itu mah udah pasti bakal dibayar FH, tapi kayanya sih yang 99 itu harus bayar deh, soalnya di suratnya juga kan gak disebut, tapi ya mudah2an sih dibayarin FH juga..

Asramanya enak banget, aa skamar berdua sama bule jerman, Stefan, dia kuliah di Uni jurusan linguistik, jadinya mau ngajarin juga aa bhs jerman cnah.. Kamarnya lumayan gede, klo dibagi dua masih lebih gede dari kamar di kanayakan..hehe..di kamar juga ada pemanas ruangan, jadi klo winter gak akan terlalu dingin di kamar mah. Asramanya juga gede, ada sekitar 6 lantai klo ga salah, aa di lantai 3. Di setiap lantai tuh ada beberapa WG, setiap WG ada 4 kamar. Nah setiap WG itu berbagi 1 dapur, 1 kmr mandi, sama 1 toilet. Di sini keran bisa langsung di minum, trus selalu ada aer panas juga dari keran, jadi klo mandi aer panas ato bikin susu langsung aja dari keran..hehe.. Oya, asramanya dicampur, jadi ada WG laki2, ada juga WG perempuan, tapi gak ada yang satu WG dicampur kok..

Di sini emang masak sendiri di dapur itu. Hari pertama nyampe sini (28), sore2nya langsung diajak yudha belanja ke supermarket. Kmaren blanja macem2, termasuk kornet, tuna, bumbu2 dll. Aa juga beli nasi instan, masaknya tinggal direbus aja sama kantongnya, setelah mateng tinggal dituang aja, klo beli beras biasa gak bisa soalnya di dapur gak ada rice-cooker. Di sini harga2 makanan mahal2, sebagian aja yang rada murah mah.

Studinya mulai sekitar pertengahan oktober, tanggal pastinya belum tau pasti. hari ini (senin) aa udah urus2 perpanjangan visa tea, ntar jadinya tanggal 19 oktober. Trus lngsung ke bank tea, tapi bank hari ini penuh banget, jadinya bikin janji dulu aja, hari rabu mau ke bank lagi, kayanya udah bisa langsung jadi deh hari rabu. Di sini mah ngurus apa2 cepet, kartu mahasiswa aja sejam langsung jadi kmaren hari jumat teh. Nanti hari rabu aa kabarin lagi soal bank tea.

Oya, di sini ada mesjid deket FH tapi, aa kan di Uni, jaraknya gak terlalu jauh sih, naek trem dua kali dari Uni ke FH teh. Oya, karena dah punya kartu mahasiswa sini, naek kendaraan umum (trem/bis) jadi gratis ke mana2 dalam kota ato radius 50km kalo ke luar kota. Di mesjid itu juga ngadain taraweh sama buka bersama terus tiap hari. Kapan2 mau nyobain juga buka sm taraweh di sana da gratis hehe..Tapi sekarang2 mah masih blom berani keluar malem, soalnya isu rasis/anti-pendatang kan masih rada rame di sini.. Tapi besok2 pasti ksana klo udah lebih hafal daerahnya.. Mesjidnya tinggal nyebrang n jalan dikit dari FH, kmaren juga jumatan di situ..

Ok, aa ngabarin segitu dulu aja.. Nanti kalo ada kabar lain lagi aa email..

Wassalam.

Peace. Out.

Home sweet home..

2006-09-22T18:56:00.000+07:00

Berbaring pada tempat tidur ini, dan menatap jatuhan titik air hujan melalui jendela itu.. Menatap lekat hingga suaranya terdengar sangat dekat sekali di antara hentakan pembuluh darahku sendiri.. Hmm.. Suasana yang ternyata sangat aku rindukan.. Mengingatkanku bahwa ternyata sudah lebih dari tujuh tahun kutinggalkan rumah ini, bukan waktu yang sebentar..

Kini dalam hitungan hari akan kutinggalkan pula tidak hanya rumah, tapi seluruh hidup dan irama yang selalu mengisi hariku.. Apakah akan kutemukan lagi hidup yang sama nanti setelah aku kembali? Lebih baik mudah-mudahan.. Jatuh kembali setitik air, namun kulihat bukan melalui jendela itu lagi..

Peace. Out.

*Kisah nyata sesaat setelah kedatanganku di rumah. Yang kurang cuma lantunan The Corrs aja gak kedenger..* Geuleuh pisan ih make "aku" gak biasanya! Hehe.. :p

Simply tired...

2006-09-17T23:09:00.000+07:00

I'm simply tired.. That's all.. Not "busy".. Just a little bit tired... End of story. Period.

Peace. Out.

Alle wage nach Surabaya..

2006-07-28T18:54:00.000+07:00

[All the way to Surabaya..]

Yupe.. This is my first and the last post while I'm in Surabaya because this is the last nite to enjoy free public hotspot available.. Man I love Surabaya! Hehe.. :p Anyway, I'm here for both business n pleasure, staying over the week at my friend's house in Margorejo. I went to many interesting places here, too much to tell, *too lazy* to write.. Hehe.. And too bad, as mentioned before, *because a reason* I will head through Bandung tomorrow morning, by train, errgh.. This weekend all flight is full, so I have to travel 13,5 hours to get home! Scheiβe!

Did I mention I love Surabaya so much? Yes I did, Surabaya is wonderful, the temperature is not that hot like what other people saying, lots of interesting *new* food *to me*, and what makes me so excited is lower electronic-gadget-price than other cities in Indonesia! Yes, I got my new acer duo core laptop here in Surabaya for just Rp 7.999.000,00! It's an intel duo core 1.66GHz *Vista-ready as written in the manual, it's 1.66GHz but is a duo core!*, 15.4" Widescreen TFT, graphics handled by Intel GMA 950, 80GB HD, DVD/CD-RW Combo, 256MB DDR2 (dual channel) and 802.11a/b/g wLAN. Lack of ram made me add another Kingston 512MB DDR2 ram to this baby. Total cost: Rp 8.399.000,00! Plus bonuses, an acer webcam, wireless mouse, earphone, and usb travel charger! Am I lucky or what?! Man I love Surabaya!

Peace. Out.

New Design..

2006-07-12T21:01:00.000+07:00

Yupe.. Do you see anything changes? Relax, it's normal, I just update my blog template to Blue, Fast, Clean and Minimalistic (BFCM) Version 2. All the blah, blabbers and blurbs can be found in the about page. Anyway, do you think the design is too "girlie" or maybe "jomblo" because of the Butterfly? Well I hope not because neither is correct.. hehe.. :p

Upadate 180706: Re-arrange the contents back to the old layout too.. Main content in left and side-dish in right. Btw, why can't I log into my sideblog account? Hell..

Peace. Out.

And the winner is..

2006-07-01T22:12:00.000+07:00

Hmm.. Aneh deh..terus terang jadi rada awkward bikin postingan sekarang..soalnya harus ngumumin yang beruntung dapet voucher Rp 100.000,- tapi asa aneh.. (Duh! Sundanya keluar deh..) Yasu, ceritanya ntar aja.. Sekarang gw mo ngucapin makasiiih..banget buat temen2 yang udah bantu ngisi survey di http://survey.gxpratama.net. Surveynya udah ngebantu gw (n temen2) banget.. Anyway, surveynya sekarang secara resmi udah ditutup n seperti yang udah gw janjiin di awal survey, akan ada voucher *gak banyak sih tapi yah lumayan kali..* buat salah seorang responden yang beruntung.

And when I say lucky, it's lucky indeed.. Pemilihannya spontan banget, and I swear I have nothing to do with it.. Jadi, acara nentuin pemenang cuma sederhana aja, gak pake sambutan apalagi potong-potong tumpeng segala, hanya dihias sama saling mengandalkan buat milih responden yang beruntung itu. Hehe.. :P *Bertele-tele yah?!* (Biarin.. jadi penasaran kan?! :p) Akhirnya setelah beberapa kali cari cara buat nentuin yang menang, (misalnya: yang satu nunjuk monitor yang lain maen2in scroll mouse sambil sama2 merem) jadinya seorang temen gw, this guy akhirnya bilang, "Udah, urutan ke 13 aja, that's my lucky number". Gw trus nanya, "Dari atas dari bawah?". "Atas.." dia bilang, dan akhirnya, satu..dua..tiga..empat.. *trus aja ampe 13* :P terpilihlah iFa sebagai lucky number yang beruntung mendapat voucher Rp 100.000,- itu.. Isn't it weird in a way? Perasaan dia tuh yang paling sering muncul di blog gw deh belakangan ini.. Masa dia juga yang dapet? (Hehehe..ini ikhlas gak sih?!) Ups..ok..luck is a luck indeed.. Maaf-maaf buat temen2 yang lain, selamat buat iFa, bener deh sumpah gw sih gak ada niat sedikitpun milih iFa..Hehe.. :P Any complain could go straight to the man who gave the idea to count the 13th on the list.. :D

Ok deh sekali lagi selamat buat iFa (I think you know how to reach me to get your voucher) en makasiiih..banget sekali lagi buat temen2 yang udah bantu, mudah2an gak nyesel udah bantuin gw.. sip deh, good luck for you all! :D Salam hangat dari temen2 gw juga.. :D

Peace. Out.

Survey

2006-06-23T19:36:00.000+07:00

Yang terhormat pembaca blog, saya sedang melakukan sebuah survey sederhana, dimohon kesediaannya untuk membantu dengan mengisi lima pertanyaan (benar, hanya lima kok..) di http://survey.gxpratama.net. Responden yang beruntung akan mendapatkan voucher isi ulang [mentahnya juga bisa kok..tenang.. ;)] sebesar Rp 100.000,- Terima Kasih.

Set dah formal bener.. Ya pokonya gitu deh.. Makasi yah klo bisa bantu.. Heheh.. :D

Peace. Out.

Posting apa ya? :p

2006-06-19T13:22:00.000+07:00

First of all, I'd like to say thanks to all of my fans who have requested me to post in this lovely (abandoned) blog.. *Hehehe* Garing sumpah! Haduh bingung deh gw.. Mo post apa ya.. Aduh Fa, Dika, bingung ni.. I actually have several reasons why I left this blog in misery, and everything would go back, circling around my dully! Here it is:

1. Sibuk
2. Banyak kerjaan
3. Sibuk
4. Mentok
5. Ga ada ide
6. Gak bisa nulis
7. Sibuk
8. Bingung nulis apa
9. M A L E S *duh!*

Sebenernya banyak banget momen yang pengen gw tulis, yang pengen gw share, tapi saat2 seperti itu cuma bertahan sebentar, kemudian gw lupa apa yang tadinya pengen gw tulis pas udah ada di depan komputer.. Gile dull banget kan?! Masalahnya gw sekarang ngadep komputer (yang online), selalu make komputer di tempat kerja, akhirnya fokusnya lebih banyak ke hal2 yang lain, mo ngeblog kburu males deh jadinya.. Hmm..kangen sih ngeblog-ria kaya dulu2..Saling blogwalking n punya temen2 baru.. Kangen masa2 punya koneksi di komputer sendiri dari kamar sendiri heheh.. Kapan ya gw dapet koneksi cepet n murah lagi.. *sedihnya..* Pengen si ngeblog lagi, konsisten, tapi tenaganya blom cukup, resourcenya juga masi belom dapet bener lagi.. Buat sementara ini, ngeblog n blogwalking masih merupakan kegiatan "curi2" buat gw, sampe gw bisa manage waktu dan motivasi dengan lebih baik lagi.. Sampe gw nemu koneksi yang lebih reliable buat gw ngeblog setiap gw pengen nulis, curhat, tentang apapun..

Anyway, logo jerman di atas gw pasang bukan karena sekarang lagi Piala Dunia n gw dukung jerman, tapi karena alasan yang lain, lagipula gw gak suka sepak bola..hehe.. :p Gw, dapet kesempatan buat exchange ke jerman, bukan student exchange tapi assistant exchange. Sekitar setaun yang lalu, ada seorang dosen gw yang nawarin buat exchange ini, well, siapa yang mo nolak dikasih mah? Hehe.. Akhirnya diurus2in, dapetlah gw invitation-letternya beberapa minggu yang lalu. Sejak setaun yang lalu gw ga banyak cerita dulu sama orang2 soal rencana ini, tapi sekarang dah *rada* pasti karena dah terima invitation-letternya, mulailah gw "berani" ngomong n banyak nanya2 sama orang2.. Ceritanya, gw bakal ikut yang judulnya "Wintersemester Praktikum" mulai 20 Sept '06 sampe sekitar Februari '07, di FHE. Intinya, gw lagi butuh banyak konsultasi tentang segala macem di sana deh, yang punya info tentang apapun soal jerman (selain Worldcup :p) gw ngucapin banyak makasih seandainya mau berbagi.. :D

Hari kamis yang lalu, gw ke Jakarta, gw ke kedutaan Jerman di Thamrin buat apply visa, formulir segala macem dah dapet, tinggal gw balikin ntar setelah komplit semuanya. Ternyata Jakarta masih panas ya.. Hehe.. Berangkat pagi dari stasiun Bandung, gw nyampe Gambir jam 9.05 trus dijemput bokapnya temen gw yang jg mo berangkat ke Jerman, langsung ke Thamrin n ngurus2.. Siangnya, gw minta dianter ke terminal karena gw pengen balik ke rumah di Cianjur, duh, Grogol gak punya bis yang langsung ke Cianjur! Sedihnya jadi orang Cianjur.. hehe.. Akhirnya gw naek bis ke Bogor dulu, nyampe Bogor gw langsung nostalgia, jaman SMA dulu di Sukabumi, gw bareng anak2 cabut dari sekolah trus maen ke Bogor, pernah juga kita cabut dari sekolah trus ke Bogor cuma buat nonton AADC! Ancur emang! Hehehe.. :p Abis makan siang di Pajajaran, gw langsung cabut naek "Colt setan" ke Cianjur. Fiuhh..

Halah, postingan apaan sih nih narsis banget! Peduli, yang penting gw mulai *napsu* nulis lagi, walopun nulis gak mutu! hehe.. :p Ah, cape.. Abis lagi moodnya.. Terusin ntar lagi deh.. Kalo inget.. hehe.. But anyway, tengkyu frens, for all your support n requests.. :D Wish u all good luck! Tengkyu banget! Sumber semangat ternyata emang bisa dateng dari mana aja.. Terutama dari temen2.. :D

On Becoming Me.
Peace. Out.

Tersadar...

2006-04-05T10:42:00.000+07:00

Belakangan ini gw mulai nyadar.. Tentang sesuatu yang sangat penting, terlambat? Nggak.. Hanya saja seandainya gw nyadar lebih cepet mungkin sekarang gw bakal jauh lebih baik.. [aneh, gw sekarang kok ngerasa makin sering juga ngalamin DeJavu!]

Gw nyadar ternyata gw dah nemuin sosok yang hebat, yang sebelumnya gak pernah gw sangka sama sekali, sekaligus ngerasa kalo gw dah banyak banget ngelakuin salah dan gak ada apa2nya, kecil banget dibandingin dia.. Gw pikir dengan gw sering baca buku-buku tentang psikologi manusia & tentang hubungan antar-manusia, nonton banyak film tentang hidup & orang, berinteraksi dengan banyak orang yang berlainan karakternya, memperhatikan perilaku orang-orang, akan membuat gw langsung ngerti tentang seseorang.. Akan membuat gw langsung tau apa yang jadi kebutuhan seseorang, cara menghadapi orang itu, memahami jalan pikiran orang lain, bisa mengkoordinasi diri sendiri untuk berperilaku secara menyenangkan di depan orang itu..

Ternyata gw salah besar, "wisdom" se-level itu masih jauh dari yang gw bayangin dengan apa-apa yang gw perbuat sekarang ini.. Sekarang kayanya gw mulai bisa rada ngeliat kenapa gw salah, mungkin karena gw melihat, mengamati, memahami semua itu hanya dengan landasan pengetahuan.. "Ya, gw ngerti soal itu, terus selanjutnya apa? So what gitu loh!" Mungkin gw kurang ngelibatin HATI dalam memahami semua itu.. Padahal, ketika berkaitan dengan hal "orang", apalagi soal inter-relationship dengan orang lain, urusan hati justru paling dominan, bisa dibilang above-all malah.. Aneh, ko gw gak pake ini sejak awal yah.. Padahal di buku2 yang gw baca juga ngejelasin soal ini sejak awal.. Emang dasar gw-nya aja kali baca aja gak pake hati jadi sejak awal urusan hati gw skip! Sial!

Back to nemuin seseorang: Gw gak nyangka banget sekarang jadinya bakal kaya gini.. Secara gak langsung sebenernya malah gw yang jadi banyak belajar sama dia.. Padahal pas di awal gw udah dengan arogannya berpikiran kalo ni orang mesti gw ajarin banyak hal tentang berperilaku, tentang urusan dalam relationship, bla..bla.. Ternyata gw nemu kalo justru gw yang mestinya belajar lebih baik lagi.. Dia itu well-shaped, well, not that well I still thought.. :P But in a way, Dia tuh seperti itu dibentuk oleh lingkungannya, naturally good, gak kaya gw yang belajar dari buku.. Kelebihannya dia adalah, dia jadinya lebih "make" hatinya karena dia berperilaku kaya gitu juga selama ini atas landasan hatinya, bukan artificial-attitude [baca: munafik] kaya gw..

Intinya, jangan sok lebih deh kalo ketemu orang lain, mostly, things are not just like what it seems..

Terlalu banyak misteri dalam hidup ini.. Alam semesta diseimbangkan dengan caranya yang paling cantik.. Dengan gw nemu dia, dia nemu gw.. Hehe.. :p Kita sebenarnya hanya tinggal mengikuti alur ini sebaik mungkin.. Just like love, it will find its own way..

Oh well, this is just my another crazy-freakin blurb! I pay for this space with my money, I think that's enough to give me rights to write *anything* I want here.. Hehe.. :p

Hidup anti-sosial! :p
Peace. Out.

Untitled, part two..

2006-03-13T18:32:00.000+07:00

Belakangan ini kok rasanya banyak yang bilang gw berubah.. Masa sih gw sampe berubah segitunya?
"Kang Angga kok jadi pendiem sih?"
"Lu knapa ngga? Kok kusut banget..."
"Lu knapa sih? Ko..aneh..."
"Lu sakit? Ko lemes kayanya.."
Bahkan temen gw sampe ngomong di milis angkatan supaya nyemangatin gw yang belakangan ini keliatan sering murung...

Hikkss... Gw terharu.. Banyak yang merhatiin n anggap gw aneh dengan sikap gw sekarang, ato gw yang berubah banget kali yah sampe gak perlu diperhatiin aja jadi keliatan kalo gw berubah.. :( Seandainya gw tau gw kenapa... Aduh.. Sebel..

Yang pasti, kalo gw lagi cape itu iya.. Lagi banyak banget yang gw pikirin n gw kerjain itu juga iya.. Lagi banyak pikiran-pikiran aneh yang ganggu itu juga iya.. Lagi ngerasa banyak tarikan-tarikan dari mana-mana itu juga kayanya iya.. Yang ini gak yakin juga soalnya bisa jadi tarikan-tarikan itu muncul karena gw bikin skenario-skenario sendiri.. Itu kali yah yang paling nyebelin..

Argghh... Apapun deh! Gw pengen sembuh dulu pokonya.. Pengen segala urusan selesai dengan rapi! Klo lagi gini yang kebayang cuma pengen sembuh trus pergi jauh..Kmana gitu..Naek gunung..Camping..Ah asik banget..Gw dah lama banget gak naek..Dah lama banget gak ngerasa seneng di alam bebas.. Damn I really miss those days when I can see the night sky clearly, sleeping outdoor, feel every drops of the rain in your skin, listening to the rhythm of nature, feel the wind burst to your face.. Wish I can do that again now.. Gak gitu sekarang juga gapapa sih, pengen juga ngobrol bareng sobat gw semaleman sampe pagi.. Tentang hidup.. Tentang impian.. Tentang segala hal.. Breaking-in lab komputer sekolah gw malem-malem trus ngoprek bareng dia sampe jam 3 pagi.. Hehe.. Ah ternyata banyak banget yang gw kangenin dari masa lalu gw..

Peduli amat lah.. Gw masi punya masa depan yang patut diperjuangkan, masi bisa mendapat kesenangan-kesenangan yang mungkin lebih dari itu besok-besok.. Tinggal gimana caranya sekarang gw bisa menyerap semangat dari alam semesta supaya gw bisa gerak lagi lebih kuat.. Duh bahasanya.. Hehe.. :P Lupakan dulu deh semua yang bikin gw sebel, bikin bete, bikin kusut.. Gw envy temen gw yang bisa tenang, gak over-reacted, gak temperamen, sabar banget dan kok rasanya dapet kesulitan juga gak pernah keliatan bete.. Asik kayanya bisa gitu..Selesein masalah jadi bisa lebih cepet n lebih baik..Dengan sikap kaya gitu malah jadi jarang dapet masalah deh kayanya... Yah, mudah-mudahan gw bisa belajar jadi kaya gitu.. Amin..

Masih dengan optimis menghadapi hidup kok..
Peace. Out. :)

======= bonus, hehe.. =======
Dalam sendirian
kian lama kurasakan kebenaran sebuah ungkapan lama
betapa nilai seseorang sangat terasa
justru ketika dia tiada
dan ketiadaanmu memberi petunjuk yang amat nyata
betapa rapuh jiwaku dalam kesendirian
dan betapa utuh dalam kebersamaan denganmu
hanya ada satu kata yang mampu mengungkap semuanya
yaitu cinta...

taken from unguViolet
======= bonus ends =======

Untitled, again..

2006-03-12T19:14:00.000+07:00

Gw males..
Gw sakit..
Gw sebel..
Gw pengen teriak tapi gak bisa..
Gw lagi jelek banget moodnya..
Gw lagi banyak kerjaan..
Gw mentok, ngeblog aja gak bisa..
Gw sedih..
Gw ngeluh karena gw ngeluh terus dan cuma bisa ngeluh...
*sigh*

No Peace. Still Out.

Do I really?

2006-01-13T14:19:00.000+07:00

Which File Extension are You?

Hmm.. Iya gitu? Yaa.. sedikit banyak iya si kayanya.. Terutama kalimat terakhir, gw banget! Hehe.. :p

Peace. Out.